Dementia is weakening her and I hate it.
The worst thing the pandemic did to me is take my very fun, dynamic dadi from me and transform her into a person who's now scared of any little change around. Her natural memory loss exacerbated to dementia because of social abstinence and now she is dependent on my wise and affectionate daddu- who I am grateful to forever. She used to be this confident, independent woman who is fearless, strong, an explorer and selflessly caring of her people at the same time. She is the one who taught me that sometimes I gotta let go of what's right and let people be how they want to because me trying to help them might instead hurt them more. I used to sob over guilt of having good things in my little life, better than many around-- she did her final magic spell as she gave me a warm hug while i was crying like a baby and said, "It's easy, give what you have more of and it helps keep the balance." And it made perfect sense. She is still the same wise, ...